29 March 2006

Easier

It is 6 pm on Saturday afternoon and the pool is empty before me. I am alone between the bushes of this artificial oasis in the outskirts of Lagos. The songs of Sigur Rós depress me as I remember the days when I would cross the country to go share the beauty of their concert with people I could really share a life with.

The rubbish on the streets, the smoke, the diseases, the poverty, the chaotic traffic, the insecurity, the walls of this compound that prevent me from seeing all of that... It's none of it that bothers me the most, but the lack of sharing the life that runs within my veins and which is ready to come outside.

I'll just turn off the music, go for dinner and forget about it all. Can I forget it and lie to myself to make it easier?

6 Comments:

At 30 March, 2006 13:01, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Sigur Rós concert is an extremely good example of how I think you are idealising deep sharing way too much as a strictly positive thing. I seem to remember there was deep positive sharing with some and deeply negative sharing with others. Deep can be good for you and others, bad for both or good for one and bad for the other. It is not in itself a value, its value is in managing it correctly and in the best possible way for everyone in order to achieve all the positiveness in it while not letting loose all the negativeness in it, don't u think?

 
At 30 March, 2006 13:05, Anonymous Anonymous said...

P.S. For me lying to oneself won't make anything easier, it will just make it harder - as well as take longer - to move on to happier places. It seems to me one can't even so much as drift away from a time, place or situation one doesn't see as inadequate, unwanted, unhappy or any other such thing.

 
At 30 March, 2006 14:49, Blogger Eduardo da Fonseca Joaquim said...

Luísa, being a way of life, sharing can be, as life, good, bad, excellent or disastrous. And it can be all of that at the same time for different people, or even at the same time for the same person. But that's living, and that has its own value, a value I miss. If on top of it you can make sharing a positive experience for everybody, then the value is even greater. Please take the use of the example of Sigur Rós just due to the fact that I was listening to them at the time I was writing: I could have taken any other example, maybe a more globally positive one...

And I agree with you that we can only change time, place or situation when we really cannot stand it. But the remaining question is if it's possible that some people can't change even when they can't seem to stand the time, place or situation? That is the most scary thought!

 
At 31 March, 2006 10:20, Anonymous Anonymous said...

point taken.
don't be scared of possibilities. U know why? because it's no use! :|
take care

 
At 31 March, 2006 11:00, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Me da mucha pena saberte asi!
No olvides que eres el meistre de tu propria vida. Todo caso te tengo fe, que no te vaya perder!
Con carriño
Anita

 
At 03 April, 2006 10:29, Blogger Eduardo da Fonseca Joaquim said...

Muchas gracias por tu cariño siempre muy positivo, Anita!

 

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